hey mel this is scott email me at ink5000@hotmail.com we plan on moving up to your area and need a tour guide. i cant find your phone number
scott and liz

Just stopping by. It doesn't look like you've been active lately.

I don't have a reason to live. just ripped off all my posters from the walls in a hopeless rage. School's gonna start soon and already I want to kill myself. I should stop talking about it and just do it. Not like you'd care. You're not a friend anymore, are you? Doesn't matter that you said you were in your last e-mail to me. Or that you loved me (as a friend) in the e-mail, too. Just lies. Bullshit. Know what it's like having no friends?

No, you don't.

And you don't care.

My plan, assuming I work up the nerve, is to jump in front of the speeding cars on I-5 around downtown Seattle. Too much pressure in life. How can I start Autumn quarter like this? Thank a whole fucking lot, Mel. Can never rely on "friends." When they leave they just push an unstable person over the edge. I am so fucked up in the head. Punching my computer. Punching everything. Punching my head until I see starts flutter. I can't get to sleep because I obsess about our (assumedly former) friendship which you're too much of a pussy to articulate anything about. Wow. I actually stooped to calling you a name. Hell, you've said fuck you to me many times so who the fuck cares? You certainly don't give a damn about me.

I've never seen you this cold before. Must be that you're a witch. An evil one......Wow, here I am insulting you and pleading for your friendship - I am totally fucked up. I hate life. And I'm beginning to hate you. I don't even know why you hate me so much but now I hate you. You sadistic cunt. You stabbed my heart. Smiling.

Karma.

Just remember that, Melanie.

I really should check myself into the hospital right now but I can't afford to. I'd really like to, too. Wow. Now I'm burning a bridge and I don't want to. I'm so fucked up on Klonapin and Xanax. But what else am I gonna do? You don't give a flying fuck about me or whether I live or die. You've treated me like shit for the past week. I won't forget this. I'm gonna get revenge one day unless you apologize to me. Soon. Which I doubt you ever will since you're so damn stubborn.

Maybe I shouldn't have called you the names but who the fuck cares? YOU DON'T! Why should I let you hold so much power over me, you heartless bitch? You're never gonna reply, r ya? Go ahead, rate this a 1! You're too much of a coward to reply, anyway.

This won't be the last you hear of me.

I am all alone and you don't care.
Please help me put the bullet in my head.
Send me a gun, Mel, it will make it easier on the both of us.
You won't hear from me again.
I will be out of this world's misery.
It's a fucking rotton jungle where, if you're lucky, your parents care (which mine do). But as for friends, hell, friends only stick around during the good times, isn't that right, Mel?
PLEASE KILL ME.
I ABHOR LIFE.

Thank you tons for the faves! How's life? Mine's pretty hectic. I'm waiting for the beginning of November, as things will calm down then. Take care .

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get down, get down, little henry lee
and stay all night with me
you won’t find a girl in this damn world
that will compare with me

thanks a lot for the watch
/me gives you a piece of bacon
mmmm bacon

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Sometimes they do not make sense.
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